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So in two weeks I will be going to Florida to visit my friend Mike and I am so excited. Not only have I never been to Florida before but I get to see a space shuttle launch, check out alligators and go to DISNEY WORLD! I love disney more than anything and my last 3 trips have been failures due to some lame people but now it is going to happen! I can’t even describe how happy I am that i get to go. The catch is that I am flying by myself and I have been kind of panicking about it. I recently hate flying and gt really scared so we will see how it goes.

Benjamin West Justice… official enough?

So Ben was sitting around complaining that I haven’t talked about him on my blog yet… well, you asked for it!

Tonight I went over to Ben’s place to chat and catch up when he decided that he wanted to know my thoughts on why we broke up. What followed was a 30 minute discussion/debate on our past relationship and why it didn’t work out. Funny I know. The strange thing is… it was so helpful to just get it all out on the table. Even though they were all things that we already knew it is so nice to just be straight-forward and honest about things when it comes to relationships (whether it is friendships or a real relationship)

I have always believed that honesty is the best policy and I probably won’t stray from that thought reguardless of how much it sucks to hear sometimes (like that you have small teeth, or are mean) Granted this shouldn’t give way for you to be a jerk but don’t hold things in that need to be said cause they just get worse and it is so much nicer to just tell someone what is going on and work it out.

I am really glad that me and Ben are friends and that we can still kick it even though we are technically ex’s. Ben, I adore you and think you are great! PS: I wish I could post the picture we took tonight of us but this will have to do…. I know this is like a little homage to us but whatever they are great pictures and we always did agree we look great together!

Bonfire with Ben

On my Birthday at the Zoo

At the Wedding

You know what this is Ben…

Ben and I at Johnny’s

halloween ideas

So I”m debating what I am going to be for Halloween. I know I want to be a superhero or villain cause I LOVE them but I’m not sure which one. I’m going to post 4 ideas I have and whoever reads this should post a response of what you think…

Hawkwoman!

I was thinking Hawkgirl but she is so little I don’t want to be her! and this mace is amazing!

Rouge

Rouge is sick I just kinda don’t want to spray paint my hair but everyone would know who I was.

BatGirl

Batgirl is kinda a cop out because it looks like  you are just trying to be Batman… so I’m not to sure.

Wonder Woman

This is my favorite Idea but it will be hard to make…

I feel like I need a disclaimer to say that I will not be dressed exactly like these pictures because even though the rest of the population of Provo thinks that Halloween doesn’t count as far as modestly goes, I’m not comfortable with being a slut so my versions will be a little more covering.

mean people

I like to think of myself as someone who is not only nice, but goes out of their way to do nice things for people. I understand that, that doesn’t always happen but I feel like you should try to be that way for the most part. Funny thing is some people are just rude for no apparent reason. I don’t understand how, when you go out of your way to do something for someone, they can be a total jerk and think nothing of it. Not just, not being thankful… no,no…. fully trying purposefully to be rude. Maybe I am just crazy but I’m never going to be happy when that happens.

How are people like that raised? When their mother makes them dinner do they simply finish, throw their plates against the wall and turn on the TV? Again, not okay. I just don’t get how a person can get so bitter and be that way often. I know this is a bitter little blog but I just think that people who know me should know that I do not deal well with those kind of people. Then again people who are like that probably HATE me because I am constantly on a chipper little high that makes me happier than I should be. Generally this post is short and a lot more depressing than the baby one, but babies are always just happy. Who knows, maybe one day i will be okay with mean people but for now, nope.

my womb is ticking

So let me start out with the video so you can all feel like babies would make you happier!

Right? I just adore this child and the father who sat on the couch just enjoying it. My body needs one of those things so that I can just sit and be entertained! I really do need a baby though (not now but eventually) I love babies and children too much for my own good. A little girl came into work today and saw the sprinkles apple and with a devilish look, turned to her mother and said… “Please? It is my favoritest! I need it.” She was maybe 3. My dad once told me that the beauty of children is that they are like little peices of you but you can train them like a dog to do whatever you want them to. AMAZING! I love it. I will probably add more later becuase babies make me so happy and sad and everything all together.

Hardest Caramel Ever

I just had to cook for the first time all alone and I ruined it. It is super chewy and hard and I felt so bad. I did a 10/9 which should make about 25 trays of apples or about 300 apples I got about 12 trays or 125 apples. Lame! I will never cook again by myself until Becca teaches me how! I feel very unaccomplished tonight.. bad weekend in general, but I will try to have a better week next week.

and the freaks emerge (Dad don’t watch this, you will hate it)

Upon surfing youtube with my roommate Katelyn and some friends, Katelyn showed us a video that changed my life! I have never in my life seen something so, shocking, disturbing, awkward and scary ever! I honestly didn’t know how to react. You might assume, as I did that this is set up, but watch the next 4 freak outs and you will be a believer. Brace yourself for the mayhem…

I want just one person, just one who can watch this and think, “Hey, I would love to be this kids mother or father.” How does a child get like this? I know a lot of parents can’t be blamed for how their children turn out but, I’m gonna blame the mother on this one. Don’t let your sons and daughters play WOW! EVER! NO! no exception, dont do it! look at what happens to these children.

Let us next address the remote issue. How is a kid taught that when you want to hurt yourself, take a remote and put it up yourself. Sorry Dad if you are reading this, but really? you have to admit this kid has got issues. How is World of Warcraft so essential to this kids life that he is physically hurting himself?

Also in video 3 he says, “You just want me to look like a loser, like a poor loser” What?! He is worried that a car is going to somehow effect people viewing him as a loser? I guarantee he lost people thinking he was rad and really normal about an hour after that first video was posted.

Lastly how has this kid not been sent to an institution? How has he not killed or seriously injured anyone? In video 3 he swings at his dad but I guess he is at least controlled enough that he doesn’t attack anyone. Katelyn said that because I laughed so hard this is going to be what my children are all like. yeah right! My children will get this crap beaten out of  them if I have to. Also I will follow after my mother and the only games my children will be playing is Mario Cart, Super Mario, Spyro and Crash Bandicoot. Halo, WOW, War games, anything violent and they will not enter my house. I can’t take a chance of this kid being mine.

and then i dont feel, so bad

The things I love right now…

1. Crystal Light: Raspberry Ice packets –> I can drink so much more water now!

2.That 70’s Show –> I can’t go to bed without watching a little bit. The characters are so lovalble and halarious.

3. Dungeons and Dragons/ Magic/ Gamers –> They make my life so much more entertaining. The fact that people can get so wrapped up in the world of fantasy and then start believing in it… AMAZING!

This kid is so sad... and I didn't know they had play sets!

4. My little brother and all the kids his age –> Alex and his fellow 18-19 year olds are SO funny. I was never that funny growing up, or now for that matter and I love them!

Kinda creepy that they are shirtless but I love them all the same

Things I hate right now…

1. The fact that the space program is ending –> I have never even seen a space shuttle launch and they are killing the program. sadness.

2. People who over photoshop things–> So many people decide that they are photographers because they buy a $2000 camera and take pictures of park benches, flowers, and old things. If a picture can’t stand on its own, it isn’t photography to me. Sorry. No photoshop please. (Thank you Tracy for the example)

oh, and put it in black and white and you might as well win an award

3. Running –> I am so unbelievably sore right now and I ran 3 days ago. i havent been able to walk since let alone run! Tracy is so good at running but I haven’t ever ran… not even for a class so starting at 21 isn’t the best plan I have ever had.

*That is about it… my life is great!

Khloe, Kourtney and Kim

So I was doing a photo shoot for DemonSnow today at Zach’s and when the photographer showed me my shots my first thought was… wow I look like Khloe Kardashian, yeah not something you want to think. But I realized how I can relate me and my sisters to those sisters.

Example A:

Jill, Val, and I

Kim, Kourtney and Khloe Kardashian

Jill in 2000

So we dont look a lot alike except that Val would be Kourtney who is really quite but a freak inside and kinda stays out of the big hub-bub of things. She is also the oldest and the shortest and is the sound voice a lot (I dont know I think Val is a pretty sound voice for me)

Jill would be Kim because Kim gets a lot handed to her, not like a bad thing but good things just come her way. I feel like that is totally Jill just cause Jill has a pretty easy time when it comes to jobs and money and things of that nature (not trying to demean you at all Jill you work hard once you get the job) Kim is also kinda the center of things a lot and a little crazy and dramatic… take that as you will.

I would be like Khloe. She is the youngest and ignored a lot of the time, the tallest of the girls and really crazy. She is kinda the rock of the family which is definitely not me but she is adventurous and kinda dumb a lot. Basically I just thought it was a fun little connection to make.  Random but I was in a blogging mood so I needed to take advantage of it.

PS! This is a picture I found after really Jill’s last blog about her fashion icon Gwen Stefani…. now everyone will know how long this obsession has been going on for (sorry about the quality but it is a picture of a picture)

PPS: I guess I can’t put the picture in here so I will try and put it in with the others

…maybe even death

So I was talking to some people recently who were discussing the commercials where they tell you about side effects of drugs… yeah I know scary. Who in their right mind would take a pill for their headache that could cause: fainting, diarrhea, bloody noses, or heart palpitations. Personally I want the headaches at that point!

No kidding the side effects for the nasal spray NASONEX are as follows: Headaches- in 26% of people; Viral Infections- in 14%; Coughing -in 13%; Painful Menstrual Cramps- in 5%; Muscle or bone pain- in 5%; vomiting- in 5%

All this for a spray that is supposed to help you control allergies! Heck no, I want a runny nose if 1 in 4 people get headaches. I like tissues, (they even make them with lotion now)

The reason all this really came up is because Val saw a commercial saying that if you take the birth control pill YAZ you should hire an attorney cause they have crazy side effects, so I looked up the side effects since I used to take YAZ…. these were my results

-A decrease in your sex drive -Headaches -Yeast Infections -Weight gain -Nausea and Vomiting -Blood Clots throughout your body -Heart Attack -Sudden loss of vision -Strokes -Liver Damage -Depression -Breast cancer -High Blood Pressure -High Cholesterol – AND DEATH!

You have GOT to be kidding! Thankfully I do not have any of these side effects or if I did, I didn’t notice but really? I think I would rather deal with some cramps and irregularity then, oh… say DEATH! It is so crazy that companies can sell this crap to us and we buy it thinking that all the side effects are just really rare and probably wont happen to us, well it happens to someone or they wouldn’t have to warn us. I just think that we are bound, as a society to die due to our apparent stupidity, me included.